UGH I think I need to vent!

So my husband (Hubs), that I lived apart from for a little over a year, has been staying with me for the past few weeks. Things have been going ok for the most part (other than him not coming home until very late some of the time and him being very messy). We do have to keep it under wraps for right now (which I don't agree with) because the mother (who I will now refer to as Crazy) of his daughter would seriously try to kill me and possibly not let my husband see his daughter. I have tried to get past it for the moment to keep the peace and so that we can work on our relationship which seems to be working a little at a time. But I am just getting so frustrated! And I think that he is as well.

I mean he is letting this stupid chick runs his life and, in turn, mine too! Crazy is basically holding his daughter over his head as some sort of bargaining pawn. If she even thinks that I am in close proximity to him she limits the time or place he can see his daughter. I have yet to meet the most important thing is his life because of her immaturity. She knows that he wants nothing to do with her as far as a relationship goes. She had her chance with him and she blew it. I am pretty sure that if she wasn't the bi%^& that she is we would be divorced and he would be with her now even if it were just for the child's sake. So why can Crazy just not let him go and move on from her?

I truly love my husband and honestly I just want him to be happy. If that isn't with me then I would want him to leave and move on and find someone that did make him happy. Why can she not be the same way?

Doesn't the saying go "If you love some one set them free and if they come back you know its meant to be" (or something to that effect)? Well I have done that and he has come back so its apparent to me that we are supposed to be together. Why does she have to get in the way of that?

And what makes it worse is his parents. They have seemed to turn against me all of the sudden. Ever since the baby was born they have totally cut me from their lives. They have even told some people that I am his ex. His mom has almost befriended Crazy too. She has taken her to dinner and had her and the baby over for Sunday lunch. Where was Hubs when all this was going on? With me. He has even told them not to talk to her.

Its almost like they want what has worked for them to work for Hubs as well.
See Hubs' mom got pregnant by his dad before they got married and they are still together almost 30 years later. But that is very rare and doesn't work for everyone. I am pretty sure it wont work for them because for one he cant stand to be around her and for two ME.

We are still married and aren't even legally separated. Not to mention we have no money for divorce. Even if I had the money I would be more likely to help him fight for custody of the baby than pay for a divorce.

Random Tuesday Thoughts

I used to feel like I fit in with the hubby's family. They liked me and I was always went to the family functions and get togethers. But for the past 4 months or so (basically ever since the baby as born) I have been the total outcast. Its almost like they think that my husband should be with the child's mother! This totally blows me away because I have done nothing but be there for my husband and for his family too. His mother has even befriended the baby mama. I mean really they are sort of alike in their moodiness but his mother has way more class than that (more on this later since this is supposed to be random).

Any who, that just makes me love my family even more!

Took the puppy Drake on his first official outing yesterday to my Dad's softball game. It wasn't a total disaster but he pretty much hates the leash.

I guess I would hate something around my neck pulling me too...

Fat people who realized they are overweight are fine with me. But fat people that know that they are fat and make every joke possible about them selves are just plain annoying. Making fun of yourself is just sad to me.

For some odd reason I really want to be in a wedding or at least go to one soon. Wish my brother and his girlfriend would go ahead and just get married already.

So guess that's it. Happy Tuesday!!

A few open letters

Dear PBS,

I would like to thank you for putting one great and wonderful show on your station. Antiques Roadshow is the best. You all should definitely fill all of your time slots with this one show! I am not a fan of any other shows on your station but you have a winner with this one. The show is great but the fact that you wait until the very end for a very few commercials is fantastic! Keep Antiques Roadshow on forever!

Sincerely,
Addicted




Dear Honda,

I am sending much appreciation to you for the cars that you make. In particular the Accord and more specifically the burgundy '02 that I drive daily. After all the hell I have put that car through and all the oil changes that I have missed and roads that I speed down I am surprised it is still running! Even my wreck a few weeks back has not slowed big red down, she is still moving along the highways with the best of 'em. I have owned many Honda's in the past 5 years and none have let me down. One of them even won a trophy in an Atlanta car show 4 years ago. Hopefully when I decide to get a new car it will be a Honda!

A big thank you,
Dedicated



Dear Mom and Dad,

Although you don't read this blog and probably don't even know what a blog is I still will write you a thank you note because all of the people that may read this need to know that y'all are awesome. I may not have always realized it but now I see how much you have done and still continue to do for my brother and I. One of the biggest things that you have done for me is raise me in a Christian home. No matter how many times I hated the punishments you gave me I knew that God loved me so much that he sent his son, Jesus, to die for me and save me from my sins. You both have shown me what a great marriage is supposed to be, and how things just seem to work out when we put our faith in God. You also raised me to be independent. You don't meddle in my life like I see happening to some friends, neither do you leave me high and dry when I need a little help (like right now). You have been there to support me even when you don't totally agree with my decisions (like getting married at 18 and then staying with someone I love despite the affair and child), but you give advice and let me work it out. I love you both and am blessed more than I deserve to have you.

With lots of love,
Your favorite (and only) daughter



That's all for now! Happy Tuesday :)